So I’m so excited for tomorrow because we are gonna go buy my boyfriend a car. It’s only $600 so its nothing nice and fancy and when we move he’ll be in the same town where he works so he won’t be driving long distances. So the reason I’m so excited is I FINALLY GET MY CAR BACK! I mean I understand he’s the only one working right now and I don’t really go anywhere but just the idea its my car and now I can finally drive it whenever I want feels amazing! Then the baby’s base for her car seat can stay in my car and not have to worry about having my boyfriend leave it for me whenever he leaves for work (which he doesn’t remember often so I end up strapping her in the old-fashioned way which is fine but a real pain the behind). So as of tomorrow I’m officially a car owner again! :0)
I really want to move out on our own and I don’t want to waste money on rent. I’d like to own my place so I can paint and do what I want to the place and not have to answer to a landlord. So we came up with the idea of buying a trailer home which we have to pay that and lot rent and answer to a lot manager but the lot rent is only $177.50 for the place we’re looking at so then we just gotta add that to the cost of the trailer, the problem is I’m not working so the bank isn’t gonna give me a loan based on my unemployment money I recieve so right now we’re trying to figure out how to come up with the money which isn’t looking too good til I can get a job and even then I am probably going to get a part-time job because I start school in August.
I am grateful my parents let us live here for only $300 a month which includes everything including food but I really want to be in my own place because 6 people living in a 3 bedroom house doesn’t really work especially with a baby. We make it work but if we had our own place it would just work a lot better. I wish it wasn’t so expensive to live…
So I haven’t quit my blog I’ve been really distracted lately.
The doctors called with test results saying it showed HPV…which I’m not sure I should go by what the doctors in this town say because when I was pregnant they did a test and I was told it was negative then when I was in labor it was all of a sudden positive and I had to have antibiotics while delivering so it wouldn’t pass on to the baby as she came out (stupid). So anyways I had this test done on the 10th and they said they’d call me with the results the next morning and they never did so I called that afternoon and was told it all came back normal. Then the other day I have a voicemail saying they have my test results and to call them back so I’m wondering what test results their talking about. The girl ended up calling back that afternoon and saying they were all normal again I’m thinking “ok?” so she calls back a minute later saying she was looking at the wrong ones and my test shows HPV and saying how I have to go in for this other test to make sure my cells aren’t changing and while she’s going on about that I’m not following her because I’m thinking to myself “What the hell is HPV?” so after she goes on about the appointment I have to make she asks me if I know what HPV is I’m thinking lady you should have asked that before you went on about some test, so after telling her no she says it’s a virus that can cause genital warts and so on and I’m like uh ok? and she said she’d send me info in the mail, so not wanting to wait for paperwork in the mail and thanking god I have the wonderful gift of internet I look up HPV…yeah what do I read? CERVICAL CANCER is the ONLY word that pops out at me so I’m freaking out all worried I’m going to get cancer or have cancer or whatever! THE LADY ON THE PHONE NEVER SAID ANYTHING ABOUT CANCER! As a person delivering medical information shouldn’t she have gone into a little more detail where there was cancer involved? I THINK SO! So I’m debating on going in for the stupid test which they look at my cells and even possibly biopsy a piece of me DOWN THERE mind you or if I should go get a second opinion to see if this place is even telling the truth this time because obviously they have problems reading results to patients. Honestly I don’t know what to do I don’t want to go to the second opinion and find out its true and I don’t want to not get a second opinion and get looked at more and have a biopsy done and find out it was false. This is one scenario where I wish I was young again and didn’t have to make these decisions for myself. If this is possible please press the button and send me there as soon as possible.
Alison Kraus: When You Say Nothing At All
It’s amazing how you
Can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word
You can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don’t say a thing
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The smile on your face
Let’s me know that you need me
There’s a truth in your eyes
Saying you’ll never leave me
A touch of your hand
Says you’ll catch me if ever I fall
Yeah, you say it best
When you say nothing at all
All day long I can hear
People talking out loud
But when you hold me near
You drown out the crowd
Old Mr. Webster could never define
What’s being said between your heart and mine
The smile on your face
Lets me know that you need me
There’s a truth in you eyes
Saying you’ll never leave me
A touch of your hand
Says you’ll catch me
If ever I fall
Yeah, you say it best
When you say nothing at all
The smile on your face
Lets me know that you need me
There’s a truth in your eyes
Saying you’ll never leave me
A touch of your hand says you’ll catch me
If ever I fall
Yeah, you say it best
When you say nothing at all
Well I was able to start working out the other night it was a 30 minute work out but still a work out none the less because I’m still feeling it in my legs. I am supposed to work out tonight to be on schedule but doesn’t look like thats happening because there are guests taking over the house. But thats ok I’m doing great on eating good so that is helping too so its not like I’m not doing anything at all. So I’m still proud of myself.
